Snow.

It literally looks like the Apocalypse outside. I'm beginning to hate everything. People, animals, just everything about everything. The government is turning into a bunch of fear mongering communists. Family is all just a figment of my imagination. It feels like I'm the only one that even remotely values my life in anyway. My mother calls me and asks me for money probably 4 to 5 times a week. Yet shes claims me on her taxes AND receives child support for me still. Literally my mom has done nothing but use me my whole life. It's driving me crazy. Everything, is driving me crazy. I'm almost to where I just want everything to end, The only thing that I find scary about that is that I'm not even afraid of it anymore. I'm not afraid to die anymore of any cause period. That's what worries me of the possibility that I might do something drastic and possibly pstchotic. Why can't I save myself anymore? Why doesn't anyone care enough to save me? Why is it that every time something good happens in my life, something more than 100 times worse happens? I can never win apparently. So I'm done trying.